And so it begins the story of a girl… Let’s just call her J.
She is every girl who dreams about conquering the world when she’s 20.
She suffers and struggles but keep on dreaming about this wonderful future. And suddenly, she turns 30 and realizes it took her 10 years to take a tiny step towards this so-called dream. And then she cries and ask herself what is she gonna do now. Time passes by, the clock ticks and she drown herself in despair.
She feels like that tiny step took her so much effort that she truly believes this is it. That’s how far she could go. So she settles down and enjoy her life the way it is.
But that doesn’t last long because she keeps receiving this encrypted messages from the universe, telling her to go on, to keep moving, to keep on dreaming. Whether a song, a movie line or a friend advice, those things reach deep into her soul, filling her with inspiration and excitement. It is a feeling very similar to that one she felt when she was 20, only know she feels less afraid.
Yes, I said "less afraid" because there is always this fear holding her back. She´s always got an excuse. She feels not ready, not good enough, not worth it. But it is just a cover up or a protection from… From what now? Deep down, it is just some stupid narcissism, some fear of throwing herself into the unknown, of riding a roller coaster she is not able to control or predict. The lack of feeling safe. It’s like giving away her heart and soul in a silver plate for people to taste and judge.
Because she cares too much about what they will or won’t feel about it. She needs that approval. She wants to be perfect.
But what she does not know yet is that nobody is perfect.
And her clock is still ticking…
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